Hypocrites

I am not perfect by any means. I don't proclaim to be. I am not Christian as Christians might call it. I believe in God, I believe in Jesus Christ, I believe that Jesus Christ died for our sins, but I also believe a wealth of other things. I believe in a whole lot of other very critical points of other religions, I believe in a whole lot of other very valid things in other beliefs. I am searching just as any other person out there is searching. I have never died and gone to the great beyond to see what is there, and unless you have, all you really have is belief, not FACT. I never condemn a person for belief, only for shoving it down my throat, only for being hypocritical, for living one way, while preaching another. The main reason I won't call myself full Christian, why I don't like Christianity....

I am not the perfect person, I am not always a great friend, I am not always patient, nor am always kind when I need to be. I make mistakes. I live with 24 hour a day pain which can get very frustrating. Add to that a new ailment which crept up on me....fainting spells, constant asthma attacks for almost a month now. I get cranky....yes, yes I do. I say things I don't mean, and I say mean things that I wish I could take back.

I do things that I wish I hadn't done, and I typically regret them immediately if not then within twenty-four hours.....

But I never ever and I do mean ever intentionally ignore a friend...and I am GODDAMN and yes I mean GODDAMN sick of people who come into my life and call themselves my friend and tell me how much they care, and then wait for a fight, first sign of a problem and ignore me, think that turning their back is the answer...


FUCK YOU ALL....

Not playing the game anymore.

If that your answer rather than talking like a mature person...GROW UP.

There is a lot of things I have never said to all of you.....things I have said because I am compassionate despite claims to the contrary...things I should say, but won't because I don't want to be mean and I do have compassion. Things that I have thought and felt for a long time, not just about our relationships but about you as people...

But I won't. All I can say is a friend doesn't treat someone like that....and obviously you were never friends at all....

My God, My Goddess, my Angels whomever I choose to worship today will lead me to those who will show me true love and strength. You all can keep pretending, keep up your facade and your hypocritical ways, perhaps one day your farce might become reality.