The twists and turns of life

Life never works out the way I plan lol. I went to my doctor on Monday, after being ill all weekend, I really hoped he could give me some medicine to make me all better and send me on my way. Nooooo he decided to hospitalize me. Of course it didn't have anything to do with the fact that I was ghostly white, sweating and about to drop at his feet with my inability to breathe and had been fainting all weekend, but I blame the doctor. So I spent the past two days on a cardiac unit where they are like Nazis. No you can't leave the floor. Smoke? What do u mean u want to smoke? Eat? what's that? You have a test you are going to and we must starve you for it lol.

I have a history of blood clots and we believed that the culprit this time was clots in my lungs and or heart. As I heard that news, my life flashed yet again before my eyes. I entered the hospital with trepidation. Wondering if this would be the time I'd be done in, or that I'd be on permanent blood thinners. I was scared, and of course my little one crying at my side didn't help. My good friends texting me making sure I was okay did. Which leads me to another topic, it's times like this, where you learn who matters, and who really cares, for even if you are in the midst of a brutal fight with someone if they find out you are facing life threatening circumstances and they really care, all that should be set aside. Thus the lesson is learned of who cares and who doesn't and we move on. I know who my friends are, and I will not dwell on those who don't.

This song is one of my favorites. It reminds me that when I do meet my maker, whomever that is, this song talks about Jesus, I won't turn this blog into a religious rambling, but I know that many have different beliefs and I hope that whatever you believe in, whatever I believe in comes true for all of us....when I meet my maker I wonder how it will be for me...Will I dance in pure unadulterated joy? Will I bow down in wonder? Will I stare in awe? Will I sing in praise of the glorious Goddess? The Angels and all that is holy and wonderous around me?

I just can't imagine the beauty of what will be around me when I do meet the end.

It's a beautiful song! And I just had to share it!